Too much on my mind!

I just needed somewhere to put my thought down....so sorry but you are going to hear a LOT of rambling! I've been thinking a lot lately about life... About all the stupid little things that really don't matter that I sometimes make too big of a deal...like if Shan forgot to tell me something somewhat important..or if Andie climbs up on the fridge to get her and Brooke candy 5 times a day, shes 4 thats expected! Or when Brooklyn pretends like she has to potty ten times at night so she doesn't have to go to bed. The point I'm trying to make is...WHO CARES? It doesn't matter...none of these things are life altering things that I need to react to! I've been thinking a lot lately about death...(depressing topic I know) Life is so short when we think about it. All I want out of life is a healthy, happy family, and the gospel. It doesn't matter if I don't have a fancy shmancy car or house. It doesn't matter that I'm not the most beautiful woman, or that I don't have a 6 pack anymore...(Who am I kidding...I never did!) It doesn't matter if I don't get to go on luxurious vacations. I just want Shan and my girls to know how much I LOVE them! They are my life and a life without them in it wouldn't even be worth living. They are the reason I get up in the morning they are the reason I smile the reason I cry and the reason I love my life more than anything. I feel so incredibly BLESSED. Words can't even describe the way I feel about them and I pray that they always know how much I love them and that I would do ANYTHING in this world for them. Brooke comes in to my room almost every night and asks me to lay with her and Shan always tells her to go to bed but I secretly go in there all the time to lay with her, talk to her and sing songs with her...because lets be honest...how long do you really think shes going to want me to lay with her? They grow up so fast and I want to spend as much time and make as many memories as I can with them...If something ever does happen to me...I want them to know that I love them...I love them so much! And they all have such a special place in my heart. I want to live my life to the fullest and show my kids as much love as I can. Shan is such an awesome husband...and I don't tell him that nearly enough, but he really is an incredible person and I know he would do anything for me. Sorry I know I am rambling so much..thanks for reading!